I’ve attempted three marathons.
Being somewhat naïve, I thought my first one was going to be epic despite my GPS watch failure before the start. I had a plan, and training and everything was executing well except a rather warm day and my calves locking up. Still, I persevered and finished a bit frustrated but smiling.
For my second attempt, I was prepared and psyched and ready to go. I was rocking right up to the 19km mark and my calves went again. Still, I persevered and finished really, really frustrated and trying to smile.
My last attempt wasn’t really and attempt but an event. I ran slow, enjoyed the scenery. Took pictures and had fun. I didn’t cramp, not even running a half marathon the day before caused any problems.
Then I crashed in the spring of 2011, perhaps from over training, or mental fatigue. Not sure. I pulled out of a second attempt at the GoodLife Marathon when it moved to the spring. I managed a PB in the Half Marathon but still had issues with my calves at 19km and didn’t feel like I finished as strongly as I could have.
My focus for the rest of 2011 changed. No long distances, I was mentored by an elite runner. I trained with a triathlon club and completed my first duathlon that Fall. And I pulled out of the Road to Hope Half Marathon in November. My feet hurt, they were really bad when I competed at Lakeside and didn’t get better through October.
It’s been a long slow road back, both literally and figuratively.
I’ve decided enter the Road to Hope Marathon on November 4th. It seems kind of appropriate to be hopeful. More appropriately, I think I’m grateful.
- Grateful to be healthy once again.
- Grateful to be surrounded by supportive family and friends.
- Grateful for the time I’ve had training to reflect on what’s important in my life.
I don’t need to run another marathon, I want to run one. I want to prove to myself that I am capable of qualifying for Boston. I believe that I can and will run a Boston Marathon.
But this is not my qualifier. Not this time, this time I have a different mission. This time I want to conquer Fear, Uncertainty, and Doubt.